Caged....

All I want to do right now is go for a walk by the lake. Just to escape the people, the constant glare of street lights, and the sounds of traffic and sirens--its what I really need right now. I feel liked I'm trapped in a place I don't belong, somewhere that lacks some of the essential things I need to survive. I feel like I'm suffocating and loosing touch with many of the things that make me feel alive. God, I hate cities.

And then I thought of something else today while reading the National Geographic News. There are exciting, exotic ecological hot spots all over the place -- Madagascar, New Zealand, Costa Rica, hell, even Hawaii....the list goes on and on -- an yet I chose to do my graduate research in Ohio?? Seriously, what the hell was I thinking? Sure, there was the I want to stay close to my family and friends and Steven....but seriously, OHIO???? And I won't even get into how depressing the environmental news is and how we have completely screwed up our planet. Perhaps the saddest thing of all is that the majority of the people don't have the slightest idea, and then some that do just don't really care. My career is so futile.

What I wouldn't give to live the simple life a few hundred years ago (and be free of my dependance on medical technology).

Ugh....I hate society.